Monday, 28 April 2008
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its been a while since i last written a sensible blog. well, d pa rin nmn interesting ung blog ko ngaun e. :)
i wont make this too long for a start. well, this year is not my year. too much things happened that are out of my control.i feel so shattered and crushed into pieces. i have no one to turn to except my laptop and my little space here oncyber world which is multiply
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things are not falling into places according to my plans and i so hate it.i cant go home. i hate to admit it but its true and i guess i just have to accept the fact that its not gonna happen.why?i wish i could tell you.this is so painful to me. everybody knows that the only thing that makes me happy is to go home once a year, which i think i deserve after a year of working my ass really hard. call it ' mababaw ', but its true. that makes me happy. i need to relax, chill even for just a month or two and now, im stuck here and u know wats killing me?is that, i cant do anything about it.ok lang sana kung financial ang problema kung bakit d ako mkakauwe e. but its not the case. i didnt expect this things to happen. i didnt expect that things will be like this or things will be as complicated as it is now. its not as simple as before na malulusutan ko. ngaun na lng ulit ako umiyak ng sobra. i cant control the tears going down on my face. everytime i look at my son, i just cant help but cry
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i need to go home. its not the typical that i want to go home. no. I NEED TO GO HOME. that's it. its now or never. promise!
Heaven knows, Love is just a chance we take. We make plans, but then love demands of leap of faith. So hold me close and never ever let me go, 'Coz even though we think we know which way the river flows, That's not the way love goes, no.. -love moves in mysterious ways.
everyday is like hell for me.if not for my son, matagal na kong sumuko. this is not funny anymore and i have to do something.
i miss you so much. as of now, that's all i can say. i'll see you when i see you. when? i dont know. only God knows.Labels: love and relationship.